THE STORK MIGHT BE IN THE AIR

There is a rumor out there that referrals might have been mailed on Monday the fourth.Lets hope this is true and that we might hear something today or tomorrow. I can't wait to finally see Emma's little face for the first time.
This week has been one filled with so many emotions. I have been staying numb for the most part. I have had bouts of excitement and then yesterday I was getting angry that we haven't heard anything. Today I am getting so excited, that the thought of getting our referral makes my cry. I think that I am finally getting excited and can't believe that after three years that this is finally about to happen.
SO COME ON REFERRALS.

WAITING,WAITING AND MORE WAITING!

We have been waiting since last Friday to hear something about referrals and nothing, not even a rumor. This is so frustrating. I think it is the longest week of my life. I can't believe that we haven't heard a rumor until yesterday or the day before. It wasn't much of a rumor. Now we have to sit and wait. I sure hope that we hear something soon.

CATCHING UP ON MY BLOG

On July 12th I had the most beautiful baby shower. My good friend Laura planned and organized it along with, Katie(my daughter), my Mother, my sister, my good friend Sharon. So many people helped to make it the beautiful day that it was. I am sure that I forgot some people (sorry) but, referrals are on the way and I can't think. I just need to catch up before they come out and then I won't even be thinking straight.
The shower took placer in my backyard. There were green, pink and yellow lanterns hanging in the tents. The center pieces were ladybugs, they were so cute. Laura even included butterflies in the theme(butterflies represent the loss of a child). I felt that my boy's were right there with me. The menu included Chinese food,ladybug and butterfly cupcakes that my mother made and ladybug cake. The weather couldn't have been better. It was a lovely afternoon. Below you will see a slide show of the shower.
I would love to go on about the shower but, now I have to post about waiting for our referral. Thank you everyone for such a beautiful shower. Thank you to all who helped to put it together(all the kids included). It was truly a wonderful day. I couldn't have wanted anything anything more. It was perfect. Love all of you.

EMMA'S SHOWER JULY 12TH

30 MONTHS LID JULY 26

I haven't posted in a while. On Saturday July 26Th we were officially logged in 30 months. Two and a half years ago our documents were logged into China. Who would have thought we would have had to wait this long. The wait is almost over. By the end of this week or the beginning of next, we will finally know who Emma is. We will learn where she is from, what orphanage she is in, her age, her weight and so many other things. We will finally get to put a face with her name. It seems so unreal. We have waited so long and it felt like this day would never come and now here it is, any day.

Well, We Missed Our Referral By One Day

Today we found out that the cut off was Jan25th. We are Jan. 26th. I surprised myself and was upset (long story). I had my guard up just in case it didn't happen this month. As soon as I found out, I called Erik and told him, I hesitated and he asked if everything was OK. I tried to tell him and I started to cry. I told him that we missed the cut off by one day, he was disappointed too. I just felt that anything would make me cry at the drop of a hat today. I just needed to process all of this and know that we were on the right path.We talked about it and realized that it was OK. We now know that we are in the next batch of referrals. There is no doubt or uncertainty that we are next. It gives me comfort in knowing that. We know that we will see Emma's picture in August. Maybe only four weeks away.

We also have a couple of friends that will be traveling with us that missed the cut off too. Melissa and Pat and Dave and Sandy. We are with the same agency. I think that we were all disapointed together. I think that we will all pull through this in a couple of days or so and start to get excited for our pending referrals next month.

There is a lot of things going on in our lives right now and know that this will work our for the best. We still have so much to do to get ready for Emma's arrivial.

I know that this all worked out for the best ( I hate that saying). Maybe just maybe we will get twins. Please keep your finger crossed and say a couple of prayers (another long story)

I Don't Think That We Are Next

Well, today there are some rumors saying that Jan. 25th 2006 might be the cut off date. I am so disappointed. If this is the case, we miss it by one day. That happened to a couple of our friends a couple of months ago. I felt so bad for them but, now one of the couples are home from China with their daughter and another one is in China with their daughter as we speak.
I know as soon as I get over being disappointed that I will be ok. What's one more month in this 29 month (going on 30) wait. It will give me more time to get the things done that I haven't done yet. Like get the deck stained, trim the bushes, finish Emma's room and a million other things.
I guess we just have to wait and hear the official date.